Does the fact that I live with other people....
I suppose I need to address the way I chose to react to the reality of the moment.......when another person interjects into my "space" of personal time and thoughts I become combative, defensive and downright enraged. .....when another person projects their insecurities, negativity and lack of responsibility for their own fear onto me out of the blue on a constant basis.
I have dealt with this for much time.................because it is precious to me I would not impose those things on someone else especially my own children. Does compromise mean giving up my moments of peace and serenity to passify someone else that will undoubtedly bring me down. This does not always happen, however I wonder first and foremost whether it is because there is no emotional bond. When there is an emotional bond the compromise or adaptation is easier because there is a fluid understanding that goes without saying.
I made posts to a previous blog (which I deleted) about energy stealers ....and find myself still writing about it. So what is my problem, if it is my problem at all--I think it is because I over extend myself in my job and am surrounded by needy people and must as the job description says provide above average service.....This service cannot be given just with work....it is given of oneself, or at least in my case. I have worked in solitude with machines many years and loved it...........I have worked one on one with people many years and like it but would have to limit it to 3-4 hours as that is my tolerance level...the other 3-4 hours I need to work physically with things, machines etc with little chit chat.
The reality is never as it seems..........whose reality is it anyways? My attitude on any given day will determine my reality and how I see the world and the people around me. If I am off balance through extending myself-then I become protective of my personal time and energy. Makes perfect sense to me...and that is all that matters as I am the one who looks in the mirror and into my eyes to see if my physical reality and my inner reality are exactly the same.
I have dealt with this for much time.................because it is precious to me I would not impose those things on someone else especially my own children. Does compromise mean giving up my moments of peace and serenity to passify someone else that will undoubtedly bring me down. This does not always happen, however I wonder first and foremost whether it is because there is no emotional bond. When there is an emotional bond the compromise or adaptation is easier because there is a fluid understanding that goes without saying.
I made posts to a previous blog (which I deleted) about energy stealers ....and find myself still writing about it. So what is my problem, if it is my problem at all--I think it is because I over extend myself in my job and am surrounded by needy people and must as the job description says provide above average service.....This service cannot be given just with work....it is given of oneself, or at least in my case. I have worked in solitude with machines many years and loved it...........I have worked one on one with people many years and like it but would have to limit it to 3-4 hours as that is my tolerance level...the other 3-4 hours I need to work physically with things, machines etc with little chit chat.
The reality is never as it seems..........whose reality is it anyways? My attitude on any given day will determine my reality and how I see the world and the people around me. If I am off balance through extending myself-then I become protective of my personal time and energy. Makes perfect sense to me...and that is all that matters as I am the one who looks in the mirror and into my eyes to see if my physical reality and my inner reality are exactly the same.
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