...searching...
..every once in awhile I ask myself that there has got to be more to this life than what I see, feel and touch....another reality.
..a reality where there is no spoken words, kinda like sitting with yourself in a quiet moment-and just knowing.
..and yet I feel so connected with everything and at the same time an entity unto myself with no real connections-there is always that wall that won't allow anyone to enter.
...I have been searching for the meaning of life ever since I can remember...there is something missing, lacking or just not there. No matter how many people I have around me, and no matter what I am doing...I am constantly searching trying to reach something that would satisfy this hunger and thirst I have. It cannot not be satisfied by another person, with money or accomplishments...it is something that is still incomplete...
..I have never really walked with the wind, always against it...
..I remain "me" despite all those different roles I played so far........I remember when the wind blew in my face and I could hardly see.....but I kept going and did what I had to do.
..always searching to find that something...there is another reality because if there wasn't I wouldn't be searching..
..a reality where there is no spoken words, kinda like sitting with yourself in a quiet moment-and just knowing.
..and yet I feel so connected with everything and at the same time an entity unto myself with no real connections-there is always that wall that won't allow anyone to enter.
...I have been searching for the meaning of life ever since I can remember...there is something missing, lacking or just not there. No matter how many people I have around me, and no matter what I am doing...I am constantly searching trying to reach something that would satisfy this hunger and thirst I have. It cannot not be satisfied by another person, with money or accomplishments...it is something that is still incomplete...
..I have never really walked with the wind, always against it...
..I remain "me" despite all those different roles I played so far........I remember when the wind blew in my face and I could hardly see.....but I kept going and did what I had to do.
..always searching to find that something...there is another reality because if there wasn't I wouldn't be searching..
posted by Wing Dreamer at 11:39 PM
3 Comments:
This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.
hey, i know it's tough, but maybe if you try to convince yourself, that 'this', this, everything that is right in front of you, is your life, that would be a good start.. kuz guess what?!?! it is!!! and i guess if you are persuasive enough then this should motivate you to make the most of what is right in front of you, and/or get you to a place where you can stand behind what you want. it's all about acting on what you need to do so you can have want you you want. now, of course this is easier said than done, but i think realizing that it is YOU (all your roles combined) that has to do it, is a good first step.
..hey that's easy for you to say,LOL (post 9 months later). For me my life's roles always revolved around other people's needs and issues ever since I was a child. When I broke out of any role it pretty much had to self-destruct first -it was never an easy adaptation- I'm not much for roles anymore, even though I have those "hats" of experience. You have made some good points and I would like to ponder on and thanks. I'm caught between 2 worlds- the here and the now.
Post a Comment
<< Home